TW: Mostly uncensored stream-of-consciousness transcripted content that covers topics such as fatphobia, weight loss, death, white supremacy, genocide, and the compulsory cishetero goings-on that are attached to “Marry Me Chicken”.
Hello, everyone. I hope you are all cool, calm, collected, moisturized, hydrated, fed, well-fucked, whatever, on this glorious Friday afternoon at 4:04 pm, Eastern Standard Time. This is my first time doing the podcast option one substack. So, I do not intend for this to be perfected because, as y'all know, I don't intend for any of my content at this point to be perfected.
However, I still want to come in and be honest and try to be as clear and concise as possible with the thoughts that are currently in my mind, the things that I've been ruminating about, the orbs that I've been pondering. And as always, I am not going to censor myself, nor am I going to apologize for my muthafucking candor, because this is Cheyenne World. And I don't think y'all would be here or keep messing with ya boi if I behaved in any other way.
So, there are a lot of things happening on the internet right now. We are currently watching fascism make a lot of collabs whether it be fascism and colorism, whether it be fascism and trying to bring back these old slave-based tropes. Even during a brief co-working session on TikTok, someone told me that I needed to prepare to be back on the field. So we're seeing more of this rhetoric in 2024. We're also seeing the fascism X fatphobia collab. And I keep telling people that we need to have this conversation, but of course, people don't want to have a conversation about fatphobia. But ya boi, This Nigga™️, is going to have that conversation because who else is going to do it besides the niggas I mess with in the fat liberation spaces, right?
The reason why I bring this up is because we really need to have a strong and honest conversation about what this big bad shit is doing to the culture, to the internet, to the general lexicon of just people overall. I wanted to write about this republication, but they said this was not suitable enough for them, so it's fine. I know it's suitable enough for me, hence why I'm even up here recording this shoot right now.
Big back was something that came up once on social media. I don't necessarily know who the original poster was, but it's something that I've seen fairly recently, even though it could have been taking place prior. I have mostly been seeing it like the end of last year, mid-last year. Basically, people are using it in the context of saying things like "you're fat" because a fat person is expected to have a bigger back. It's weird, but then we started seeing it from blatant fatphobia to more covert shit where people were like, "well, if you don't mind having a big back, you could make this recipe."
Before I go on a rant about that, that's going to be a whole another substack post because honestly, it may be time to start writing some silly shit like that. Marry me chicken ain't nothing but mutherfuckin Tuscan chicken. It's a whole thing. It like and first of all, I also like I really want to have a conversation about how cishet niggas and when I say niggas in this context, I mean, Black people, have very weird like mating rituals, if you will. I'm gonna just say it like that because that's how that shit be feeling.
And I'm saying that to be as unserious and serious as I can, but like, (I'm sorry, let me turn the shit shut down because now I'm hearing the Discord shit). But again, also, this is off the rip and is unedited.
So you're just getting me off the motherfucking dome today. Anyway, um cishet niggas be having these weird mating rituals where they be name and shit to like, acquire a man or do a man because dudes that will do a man for real but or, or like, or like convince a man of their worth and saying shit like marry me chicken and shit. Queer niggas don’t be doing that shit. We don't be doing shit like that. So I know that’s gonna be another substack post, but I'm like, “Yo, just make the fucking chicken. You met this nigga two weeks ago! What are we talking about marriage for? Just make the fucking chicken!”
But, anyway, back to the context of the conversation, the niggas are so busy deep-throating Ozempic right now and so busy focused on the wrong shit that this big back chick has become a part of our lexicon so much so that people are now on TikTok doing fatphobic fat suit type-esque-beat humor, where they're stuffing their shirts and then they're going into their refrigerators and pretending to engorge themselves with different foods.
And then it's this big back rhetoric and making fun of fat people and then proceeding to abuse and verbally assault and promote violence against fat people, which has not stopped, let's be clear, but it's been exacerbated, especially now that we're seeing all the genocides happening in the world, especially now that we're seeing how fascism is literally making a vicious comeback.
I also want to make it clear that there is a connection between the fascism faster fatphobia collab, the resurgence of Weight Watchers, and shit like that, which Weight Watchers is now posited and positioned itself as a clinic. So even the fact that we have “bariatric science” becoming a thing where you have these “clinics” to convince people to lose weight or convince people to feel like they have to because of whatever reason, and full disclosure, I don't give a fuck about people losing weight. Time after time, like Cyndi Lauper said, I don't give a fuck about people losing weight. I don't give a fuck about people choosing to do whatever with their bodies. However, I do give a fuck about how people move in those spaces. I don't give a fuck about people choosing to do whatever with their bodies; however, I do give a fuck about how people move in those spaces and how when people usually do that nine times out of ten they don't give a fuck about fat people.
And it becomes this conversation of when people give honest and thoughtful critiques. It's, "Oh, you're jealous." It's the same rhetoric as when darker-skinned people give critiques about colorism and light-skinned people perceivably see that as like being bullied or being or people being jealous. First of all, you already jump into jealousy because now you're in a thinner body literally is the fatphobia speaking because this is it like, "Oh, you're jealous because I chose to be smaller than you." Nigga, I don't give a fuck about you being a size 14. Whoopty fucking doo! What I do care about is that your size 14 ass and my size 24 ass, should be able to wear the same mutherfuckin clothes, that's what I should care about. I also care that we should all be able to go to the doctor and be treated as a human, regardless of how or the fuck we look, however the fuck present, so on and so forth.
I do give a fuck about how your size 14 ass, my size 24 ass, and whoever comes before or after us should have equity in all areas of life. That's what I give a fuck about. I don't give a fuck about you and your choices. I'm not jealous of whatever the fuck you got going on.
However, I will say this, keep it a mutherfuckin stack, my nigga, as to why you're doing this. That's all people are saying. If people would be like, “Listen, I chose to lose weight because the fatphobia was so hard for me to deal with and navigate that I had to make different decisions with my life,” I’d have hella respect for that.
You know why? Because that's real. We live in a world that fucking hates fat people that fucking hates marginalized people. Do you think that we don't know that it's excruciatingly painful to see how people fucking turn they backs on us, make fun of us, kill us? And don't even bat an eye when these aggressions and these atrocities happen to people that look like us. Of course, we're cognizant of that. But we're what we're not going to do is sit up here and feed into these fairytale bullshit lines that you chose to do something for you, especially when you're posting it on the motherfucking internet.
Y'all are influencers. Y'all are content creators. Y'all know how engagement farming works. Y'all know how engagement works. Y'all know how these muthafuckin algorithms work. Y'all been doing this shit for the longest. So y'all know that when you post things, you want the target audience to relate to it so people can continue to come back to this content. And y'all also know that when y'all post these mutherfuckin before and after videos, and photos and collages, and Canva-generated infographics and shit, y'all know that that comes from a place of weight loss clinics and programs.
Y'all know that’s how that originated. So let's not sit up here and act like we don't know what type Um, it is because baby, I'm looking at the clock right now. And it's fatphobia o'clock. Don't fucking play in my muthafuckin face, stop fucking playing and trying to play in people's muthafuckin faces. It's not that hard.
In order for us to get free, we got to get honest, and getting honest not only with our communities, and again, I don't think we owe people anything, but if we are going to put shit out be understanding and knowing that when you put content out, it is going to be left up for debate, and it is going to be left up to interpretation, and it is going to be left up to critique. And some of the critique is not going to feel good.
Telling a nigga check they privilege, telling a nigga to check they fatphobia telling a nigga to check anything does not feel good. It's not supposed to. You think it feels good for the person to sit up here and watch you do that? And then they have to come back and talk to you about it. No, it don't feel good for anybody. But what's gonna feel worse is that you don't hold yourself accountable.
And you sit up here and allow people to lie to you like to share this, okay? It's not okay, that we have to be subjected to this. And it's not okay that you feel like you have to diminish yourself for a system that don't give a fuck about you either way.
Because baby, I'm gonna tell you right now, when it comes to white supremacy, it's a party that we're all going to be killed by. And I'm not saying that lightly. It's evident, it's clear, it is happening. And I really think we need to be honest about where we are, and what we need to do, and how we're going to do it. And so this is how I this is the this is the hairy part of the conversation, where I'm gonna say this. I keep telling y'all, at this point in late-stage capitalism and white supremacy, we're not going to fully eradicate it, it is very clear that that's not going to happen. It's very unrealistic to even have that as an expectation, or a goal, maybe an end goal, maybe way beyond us exit our existence at this point, right?
But this is why I say we move to harm reduction. And the harm reduction is niggas could do whatever fuck they want to do with a body because it's bodily autonomy, right?
However, I think we just need to be more intentional about how we do these practices, and how we're showing up for people that live in larger bodies than us. And doing it in a way where we don't dishonor them, and doing it in a way where we still want to advocate for people. Because I don't think it's fair that y'all do all this work. And then don't be honest about where you're at. Because it's very clear, when you start clamoring in the comments. When you start clamoring, inequality tweets, when you start clamoring into Instagram stories.
It's very common. It's very, not confident. It's very prevalent, excuse me, it's very obvious. There we go. It's very obvious that you are literally fighting your own demons beloved, it really is.
So I hope that fatphobes have the life that they deserve, which is a terrible one. I hope that fascists have the life that they deserve, which is not one. And I hope that we continue to be honest and have these honest conversations. I hope y'all have a wonderful weekend. Take care of yourselves and each other. And peace, love, and hair grease and hydrate, and all that good shit. Yeah. Bye.
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